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James Kent
It's Not the Critic Who Counts

By James Kent
Affinity, July-August 1996, p. 4

It seems as if we swim in a sea of family, friends, work colleagues, Church leadership, commercial advertising and political commentators that claim to know us better than ourselves, and what is best for us.

Here is some of the commentary that well meaning people have said to me:
  • "It's time for you to stay home and start dating."


  • "If you'd lose some weight, more people would find you attractive."


  • "How can you associate with that snake, he's so untrustworthy."


  • "You need to 'get over' Affirmation."


  • "How could you consider yourself to be gay if you don't call yourself a Democrat?"


  • "Only name brands can guarantee quality."


  • "The Church must be exposed as the evil hypocritical organization that it really is."


  • "You think you are better than us because you do not go clubbing."


  • "You know the Church is true, you know the will of God, and you know that a homosexual lifestyle is wrong."


  • "You are so boring."


  • "It's not that I have a problem with drag, but what would visitors and new members think of our [Affirmation] group?"


  • You're being selfish."


  • "You need to go to Church and set a good example for all those closeted gays and lesbians in your local ward."


  • "How can you drink alcohol and still call yourself a Mormon?"


  • "James, you need to be a little more discrete."


  • "Maybe if you found the right woman, you could go straight."
President Theodore Roosevelt put it very well when he wrote:
It is not the critic who counts, not the man who points out how the strong man stumbled or where the doer of deed could have done better.

The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena; whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs and comes short again and again; who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, and spends himself in a worthy cause; who, at the best, knows in the end the triumph of high achievement; and who, at the worst, if she fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat.
For the first 30 years of my life, I lived other persons' dreams, I fooled myself into believing they were my own. It was a safe world of absolute values--except they were not my values, even though once upon a time I so very much wanted them to be my values.

So here I am with my fears, my temper, my bitchiness, and my fat, excelling in some areas of my life, and falling flat on my face in other areas. BUT I AM ALIVE! And although I'd rather be dead than 'special', I AM ME! In my own way, I am trying to live the 13th Article of Faith:
We believe in being honest, true, chaste, benevolent, virtuous, and in doing good to all [people]; indeed, we may say that we follow the admonition of Paul—We believe all things, we hope all things, we have endured many things, and hope to be able to endure all things. If there is anything virtuous, lovely, or of good report or praiseworthy, we seek after these things.
God bless all of you!

Love, James Kent