It’s Not Enough to Change Policy: My Church Needs to Repent

6 de abril de 2019

Luz de arco iris de mano

by Nelson Negron

Sometido a afirmación luego de que La Iglesia de Jesucristo de los Santos de los Últimos Días revocara sus cambios de política de noviembre de 2015 que prohibían que los hijos de padres LGBTQ fueran bendecidos y bautizados y caracterizaron a los miembros de la iglesia que contraen matrimonios del mismo sexo como apóstatas. Estos cambios se conocieron dentro de la comunidad LGBTQ mormona como la "política de exclusión", "política de exclusión" o "PoX". El día después de que se anunció la revocación de esta política, Nathan Kitchen, presidente de Afirmación, invitó a todos los que estuvieran dispuestos a compartir sus sentimientos auténticos y todas sus historias de dolor, ira, alivio, tristeza, felicidad, confusión, lo que sea que los rodea. la rescisión de esta política. “Como presidente de Afirmación, quiero asegurarme de que Afirmación no los oculte a usted ni a sus historias a medida que avanzamos”, escribió Kitchen en su invitación. Si tiene reacciones o una historia para compartir sobre la revocación de la política de exclusión, envíela a [email protected]. Tú también puedes leer otras historias y reacciones a la revocación de la política de exclusión.

For this post to make sense I need to do something I’ve delayed doing for too long. I’ve decided to finally do it not because I think it’s anybody’s business or because I need anyone’s approval, but rather because it’s time I join my people in the fight for our existence, our rights and equal treatment. Nothing special, just equality.

I am and always have been a part of the LGBTQ community. Yes, I was born this way. I too was bullied and mistreated as I was growing up. “Maricón”, “pato”, among others were the insults accompanied by inappropriate jokes I had to listen to and was forced to laugh at (so as not to blow my cover) my whole life. Feeling “less than” and tortured by the pain of having to keep a secret that was bigger than me was a heavy weight to carry since childhood. Getting my feelings hurt by friends and family members that didn’t know or understand the things they were saying, or who they were saying them to, was a regular problem.

I have always believed in God and loved and respected His teachings and influence in my life. At the age of 16, I joined the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, which made me a target for more bullying and isolation within my school, family and even some friends. However, what I had found in the gospel of Christ was larger and more important than anything I had ever experienced before. I had to share the good news with others, so at the age of 19, I accepted an invitation to go preach the gospel in California for two years.

My feelings and attraction towards the same sex never went away, no matter how hard I prayed, no matter how much faith I had. During my mission and after I was told by leaders that, if I married a woman, those feelings would go away. I did. After letting her know about my secret, we gave it a go, but after 12 years and two sons, we decided to end our marriage. The attraction never went away.

It has been very hard to keep my faith in an organization that led me to this major life failure, but not once or for one minute have I doubted the truthfulness of the true teachings of Christ or the love of God for me and for all. The imperfect people who run this, and any other organization, have caused imperfect decisions to be made and many people have been hurt.

I am glad that my church has reversed the policy put in place 3.5 years ago. A step in the right direction indeed. However, there’s more that needs to happen. One doesn’t get to just change something and walk away without apologizing for the damage, and fixing the problem, we caused.

Why do I think I get to ask such an organization to apologize to me?! Because it was my life that was altered because of the policy. My sons, in an attempt to support me, left the church and had their names removed from church records. My older son was getting ready to go on a mission and decided that he couldn’t preach a message from a church that would make him renounce his father’s source of love and happiness. It tore me apart.

Because it was me who wondered if I’d be better off dead. It was me who questioned my existence and felt unwanted, unloved and “less than” on a daily basis for a long time.

Because it was me who was under incredible and unhealthy amounts of stress and pressured to make decisions about my happiness in relation to my eternal salvation.

It was me who tried to process the message of the gospel as a message of hope and happiness that simply didn’t apply to me.

And because, to me, it’s personal.

Yes, this is a step in the right direction, but the process of repentance I was taught, ironically by the organization, included an apology and fixing the problems caused to the most possible extent.

Yes, I am gay and I have learned to love myself. More importantly, those whom I love value me, love me, and accept me just as I am.

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Comentarios de 2

  1. Michael Haehnel en 06/04/2019 en 7:02 PM

    Exactly right. The Church needs to model the very doctrine it has taught over and over again. Elders Oaks in 2015 said that the Church does not make apologies, as if that was God’s mind, but it is not. God weeps for what was done in His name.

  2. Sean Brady en 07/04/2019 en 1:03 PM

    Great comments and I am sorry for you and your suffering and the many who suffer every day wondering if it’s worth going on. Know this, it is so worth going on because of what you can do through your strength and commitment to help others. We all need each other in one way or another. We all have struggles gay straight black white or who ever we are we all struggle and we all need each other to get through life’s amazing journey. Know that you are loved and we need you.

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