Uma porta aberta, mas muitos corações partidos

6 de abril de 2019

Porta aberta com chave

by Glenn McRae

Submetido à Afirmação após a reversão de A Igreja de Jesus Cristo dos Santos dos Últimos Dias de suas mudanças de política de novembro de 2015 que proibiam filhos de pais LGBTQ de serem abençoados e batizados e caracterizavam membros da igreja que se casavam pelo mesmo sexo como apóstatas. Essas mudanças se tornaram conhecidas na comunidade LGBTQ Mórmon como a "política de exclusão", "política de exclusão" ou "PoX". No dia seguinte ao anúncio da reversão desta política, Nathan Kitchen, Presidente da Afirmação, convidou todos os que estivessem dispostos a compartilhar seus sentimentos autênticos e todas as suas histórias de pesar, raiva, alívio, tristeza, felicidade, confusão, o que quer que seja que esteja ao redor a rescisão desta política. “Como presidente da Afirmação, quero ter certeza de que a Afirmação não esconde você ou suas histórias à medida que avançamos”, escreveu Kitchen em seu convite. Se você tiver reações ou uma história para compartilhar sobre a reversão da política de exclusão, envie para [email protected]. Você também pode leia outras histórias e reações à reversão da política de exclusão.

My name is Glenn. I am a gay man, and trying to remain a member of the church. I’m mostly confused about how I feel.

3.5 years ago, I was not a part of the LGBTQ community. I am definitely gay, and have been my whole life. Preparing for my LDS mission in 2013, I had successfully killed the gay part of me. When I got back home in 2015, I knew for certain I was going to marry a woman. I had never listened to a gay person’s point of view. I “knew everything”. I was a returned missionary after all.

That November, I wasn’t surprised at all by the policy. I “understood” why God would want to do that. I thought it protected children of same-sex couples from the psychological distress that would happen, coming from a loving home to a church that told them their parents are sinners and wouldn’t be with them forever. I “understood” that God would provide a way for the LGBTQ members to live happily and obediently.

Just over a year ago, I finally came to terms with my sexuality. The full story can be found on my blog. I’ve finally been a part of the LGBTQ community, and I’ve gotten to know beautiful, wonderful souls. Over the past year, I’ve finally come to terms with who I think God is and how He loves us. I ask myself how I could ever possibly convince an LGBTQ individual to join the church, knowing they’d be kicked out again because of who they are.

So, on April 4th, 2019, I was excited, because a door had been opened. I talked to my boyfriend to see how he felt. He was excited too. But then I read more and more opinions about the policy reversal. So many broken hearts, angry hearts, and bitter hearts. Because of where I was 3.5 years ago, I can’t share that pain because this policy has only affected me once.

I feel sorrow that I can’t connect with the beautiful people I’ve come to know. I can’t ache like they do. In a way, I feel like I’ve let the community down, though I’m still new to the LGBTQ experience.

But I still feel a hope for things to come. It might put us back to 2015, but at least we’re headed in the right direction again.

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2 comentários

  1. Michael Haehnel em 07/04/2019 às 8:31 AM


    Your journey is just a legitimate as anyone else’s. I, too, find that I sometimes feel that I can’t connect with other LGBTQ people. I have lived life in the “betweens”: between active and inactive as far as the Church, between gay and married to a woman, between angry at the policy and not directly affected by it. Moments like this find me straddling that between-ness once more: glad and skeptical, optimistic and aware of the pain that is not answered. Where we land and when we land there we cannot easily control. The best we can do is walk whatever section of the path we are on with integrity to ourselves, to those around us, and to God. Eventually you and I find that we do have a role to play on our particular section of the path. I ask myself these three questions that only I can answer:

    1) Who am I? (How do I identify myself in as honest a way as I can?)
    2) How will I live? (Knowing who I am, how do I take care of myself?)
    3) What do I have to offer? (I am who I am, and I choose to live as I must to take care of myself: from my unique vantage point, what can I give to others?)

    The answers to those three questions help me when I am confused because of my between-ness.

    Thank you for your thoughts. They helped me a lot. I too have felt like an outlier.


  2. Doug Smith em 17/05/2019 às 11:34 PM

    I do not understand the hysteria and hoopla surrounding the minor tweak of the church’s LGBT policy that happened recently. Weeping, praying, tweeting, as if God Himself had revealed something. He did not. The only change in policy is that children of gays can be baptized, while the parent’s remain condemned. I find it so odd that within the gay LDS community, those who earnestly are trying to live normal lives and do the right thing with a legal union, are the very ones who continue to be marginalized by church leaders, as living in “serious transgression”. That many call this progress is baffling to me. Who needs it?!

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