Singing at Church

março 1, 2015


Rance Wright

by Rance Wright

I was asked recently to share my thoughts about being given the chance to sing at church.  And why after 9-10 years of being told by church leaders that I was not worthy due to my openly gay life style was it such a huge deal to me.   Here is a small glimpse into that moment for me.

First off, yes it was a big deal to me, for everything about my testimony in my life has been based off of music.  I feel God near when I sing.  I know that he exists through this higher talent I’ve been given through voice.  About 9-10 years ago when I was being dis-fellowshipped from the church for living an active gay lifestyle, one of the stake high council in St. George East Stake knew my love for singing and told me that continuing to perform would only assist in me being gay.  He decided that I should not be allowed to sing as long as I was actively pursuing the gay lifestyle.  All the council heard and I was told that I could no longer sing in church. He told me that gay men are mostly found in my choice of career. We all know how that is NOT true.  I knew at that moment that what he was saying was not of God.  So my faith in my church leaders began to dwindle.  I started to lose faith.  And in a way I started to lose sight of God.

As I child I was molested by my Scout Master, so this hasn’t helped the cause at all.  It has confused my very core as a human being.  I got involved in drugs, alcohol and wild behaviors sexually.  I was seeking for any form of acceptance and love.  And I most definitely could not find it in the Mormon Church.  I still can’t find it in the Mormon Church sadly.  They have created no guidance or hope for gays.

When I sang two weeks ago at the Adult Singles Branch in New York City…it was as if the audience was given a glance into the last 20 years of my life.  The moment I opened my mouth and began to sing (cry/speak) these words “Where Can I Turn for Peace…” I literally asked that of God. For twenty years I have literally been without.  Throughout the piece, it got stronger and stronger, for I felt the support of my friends.  After I was done, there were many eyes filled with tears.  I turned to exit the podium and was asked by the stake councilman to stay and share why this moment touched me so deeply.  I started with…”Well, I’m Gay”…and shared a simple story.

That day nearly 32 friends of mine from Affirmation and all walks of life came in support of this major moment in my life.  We doubled the attendance at that branch that day.  I can never thank my friends and Jon Pinney enough for sharing this beautiful day with me.  You, my friends, are where I see God’s light.  For like you, God comes with no judgment of me, he loves me unconditionally and loves me for being the beautiful imperfect GAY that I am.  God speed dear friends.

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5 comentários

  1. Roger Cazier em 01/03/2015 às 11:57 PM

    I Was raised in your parents home town. Your mother treated me like I was somebody, at a time in my life when I didn’t think much of myself. We have remained good friends over the years here in St. George.
    I was talking to a friend about the anger I was feeling about one of my daughters who has not lived a great life, I realized that I am sinful too, and didn’t want Father in Heaven angry with me, In fact I have felt his love and forgiveness often so I knew that I was wrong to feel angry. This friend explained “Father has a plan for us all, Jesus came to pay all our debt, He will make up where we fall short, we all have faults,that the Celestial kingdom is not the shape of a pyramid but the opposite, that the celestial kingdom will be fuller than the other kingdoms, because Father wants to be with as many of his children as possible. Keep working on your faith. Song is a great tool through which we can feel the spirit. Father will bless you as you exercise faith in him, be prayerful, prayer is the key to Heaven.

  2. Patrick em 02/03/2015 às 12:39 AM

    Amazing experience my dear fella.
    It is really, really good to read such stories as urs.

    Pd. U’ve got the most amazing blue eyes.

  3. John Arnaldi em 02/03/2015 às 8:47 AM

    Thank you for sharing your many gifts. Thank you for continuing to sing out your truth so courageously. Big hugs!

  4. Max em 03/03/2015 às 8:34 PM

    I don’t even know what I am wanting to comment except that I feel the same way. Music is my life. I would sing in church every other month growing up. I love it.
    I feel like such a coward because I am 30 and gay and have only told 2 friends for fear of how people will react. And that has only happened in the last two months.
    I guess I want to say thanks for sharing this story. It makes me feel a little less…alone.

  5. alan em 09/03/2015 às 9:15 PM

    Absolutely touching! I most definitely identify. Any video footage?

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